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Post by lovingthissite on Dec 29, 2009 1:33:53 GMT
”How can something so wrong feel so damn good?” Thats what Zane heared and he let a smile touch him as he rested his chin ontop of Kaleb's head. His hand massaged Kaleb's stomache as his other hand just rested below his shoulder. "Because thats how it should be."Zane spoke softly. He found himself moving Kaleb now, the wall was amazingly wide enough for Zane to move Kaleb to a laying position, his hands still in place. Zane kissed the middle of Kaleb's neck and then whispered in his ear."I don't think i can let you go.. He was so soft toned it even suprised himself. Zane's other hand slipped under Kaleb's shirt each on the adjacent side moving up to his upper chest. Zane leaned down his lips dangling teasingly away from Kaleb's."Your to tempting." Zane whispered again.
His lips made contact again and he did it foricbly putting his point come across. He then found Kaleb's lower lip and begna to nibble on it. If they were caught now Zane didn't care, because as long as he had Kaleb it was fine. [/blockquote]
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Post by kaleb on Dec 29, 2009 2:03:30 GMT
` WHEN YOU SWEAR IT‘S ALL MY FAULT,’cause you know we‘re not the same [/size] - - - - - - - - - - - - - Kaleb sighed and melted into Zane’s arms. He let Zane move him as he wished, not having the emotional energy to protest. Like he wanted to anyway. ”But that’s just not fair. It’s not right that temptation can dangle you in front of me and make it so wrong for me to give in” He sighed, upset that he’d actually found someone worth kissing more than once, and it was the one person he couldn’t have. That’s why he needed a girl, someone to distract him, someone to stop him from wanting Zane’s lips quite so much. Someone to save Zane’s job.
Kaleb let out a quiet moan as he felt Zane’s lips on his neck. He arched his back slightly, reacting to the electric current pulsing through his veins at that moment. The sound of his whisper in Kaleb’s ear, the feel of his breath, it made it even harder to resist the call of Zane’s lips.”I don’t think I want you to” [/color]He retorted in his own quiet whisper. He felt too happy, too safe in Zane’s arms to want to go. Warning bells should have been going off in his mind right then, but there were none. He honestly didn’t want to leave his arms. Kaleb smirked at the tempting comment. ”Says he who lays me down on a wall and then keeps his lips so far from mine. Come here” He said, wrapping his arms around Zane’s neck, a cheeky glint in his eye. His eyes went wide as he felt Zane nibble on his lip. He stifled another small moan. Did the man know the effect he had on kaleb? He revelled in the moment, not truly caring if they were caught anymore. Kaleb felt different. Zane had changed him, he knew that, and he wondered how it was possible in such a short amount of time. But then it sunk in that Zane hadn’t changed his personality, his attitude, no. Zane had merely broken down the shell that everyone else saw, the mean, womanizing Kaleb, and revealed him for the kind, nice Kaleb that all those nannies had raised him to be. When he was younger, his parents didn’t care much for him, they hired nannies to raise their son, and when he got too attached to the nannies, one day they were gone, and the next day, there was a new one in their place. That was the pattern of his childhood. And so when he got to be older Kaleb, he didn’t handle emotion well, and he had severe trust issues. All he wanted to do was make daddy proud, and Daddy threw everything back in Kale’s face. He resigned himself to getting his dad angry, gaining his attention that way. So Kaleb had built this wall, this shell, presented himself to the world how people expected him to be, but it wasn’t the real Kaleb. No, the real Kaleb was finally free, and laying down on a wall with a male professor. Granted, he still liked girls too, but Zane made him feel. He made him feel excited, he made him feel wanted, and thus was the lure for Mr Kaleb Garcia, the one thing he’d always wanted. To be wanted. He didn’t mean wanted as in for sex. No, he meant wanted as in someone wanted to hold him, someone wanted to make him happy, and he wanted just the same for them.[/size][/blockquote] - - - - - - - - - - - - - T A G G I N G zane W R I T I N G 574 words W E A R I N G clothes S A Y I N G hope this one explains a little more about him! S I N G I N G paramore - ignorance C R E D I T I N G me.
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Post by lovingthissite on Dec 29, 2009 15:48:27 GMT
”But that’s just not fair. It’s not right that temptation can dangle you in front of me and make it so wrong for me to give in”
Zane could't help but smile at that anology."But temtation is just the begining Kaleb." He replied. Why was this so hard for Zane to let go of? It wasn't the same as Vicky, he always tried to say no to her, but he felt drugged up and unable to think straight at all.
Something flared in Zane when Kaleb said he didn't think he wanted to leave. He found that it made him feel really happy, almsot like he could just live on that single sentence, could this just be a sick illusion of his. Oh God I hope not Zane thought to himself in dispair. If it was zane wouldn't make it through the entire rest of his life without regret. Even if, he knew he was probably doing something horribly wrong.
Zane smirked slightly at Kaleb's retort. Zane heared the slight moan, it was small but he picked it up. He took that into his mind and churned it, safeing that and loving it. He moved up his lips jsust above Kaleb's again."..I..honestly thought you hated me before now."Zane said softly feeling ashamed for thinking it in the first place.
Zane never really hated anyone, sure the annoyed him quite alot, but thats when the aren't acting like they know they should. People are smart, they shouldn't have to act stupid when they know who they really are. Zane for one never let himself be to near anyone because his own mind told him , your going to hurt them if you aren't careful. Zane knew this to well on his past years a Hogwarts, he had, been alot like Kaleb he guessed, not understanding the relasionship part of being with someone, not wanting to be tied down. But now he wasn't sure if he could be with anyone else. It was hard to say what he wanted with how confused he was.
Maybe he should just cut off now, before it was to late, no it was already far past to late. It was down a six foot hole and under water way to late. Though he was willing to to drown this time. Zane found himself hoping if this 'was' a dream that he could never wake up, and it would jsut stay this way. Zane's hand moved away from Kaleb and he found himnself jsut staring down at him. [/blockquote]
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Post by kaleb on Dec 29, 2009 17:24:29 GMT
` WHEN YOU SWEAR IT‘S ALL MY FAULT,’cause you know we‘re not the same [/size] - - - - - - - - - - - - - Kaleb frowned for a moment, but then understood the meaning of the comment, or at least that was what he thought. ”But how can we be ‘us’ I mean, I’ve not had a proper relationship in so long, I think I’ve forgotten how to, and besides, it’s still wrong, …professor” [/color] Kaleb said the last word, unsure of how it would effect Zane. He couldn’t think straight, all he knew was that right now, no matter how confused he was, he was happy! Kaleb didn’t understand the happiness that he felt as it sunk in that Zane couldn’t let him go. It made him smile, it made him feel happy, it made him feel wanted. And he loved that feeling, he’d been starved of it as a child, and he fed from it right now, soaking the moment up. Even though the wind chilled his skin, his heart was on fire. He didn’t know how Zane did this to him, but he didn’t care, the power that this man held over Kaleb, it was unbelievable! And he didn’t think that Zane knew how he made Kaleb feel. Kaleb’s stomach flipped over when he heard Zane’s words. He had to admit, that he thought he hated Zane too, but he knew that it wasn’t hate, no, maybe some unconscious form of lust, making him mad for Zane making him feel like that when he thought he was straight. He Didn’t know what he’d felt for Zane before, but it wasn’t hate. ”I admit that so did I, and I am ashamed of even the thought of hating you”[/color] He whispered, brushing his lips across Zane’s softly. He didn’t want this to end, and if it was a dream, he’d rather sleep forever than have this moment, this happiness abandon him, and leave him with the cold nothing he had before Zane. Kaleb felt Zane remove his hands, and he felt a pang of fear. He was worried that Zane had changed his mind, that he was leaving before it got too late. It was already too late for Kaleb. His eyes scanned Zane’s face, and his hand raised and stroked Zane’s cheek softly. ”What are you thinking, honestly?”[/color] He asked him, wondering what was going through Zane’s mind at that moment. [/size][/blockquote] - - - - - - - - - - - - - T A G G I N G zane W R I T I N G 379 words W E A R I N G clothes S A Y I N G hope this one explains a little more about him! S I N G I N G paramore - ignorance C R E D I T I N G me.
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Post by lovingthissite on Dec 29, 2009 20:03:22 GMT
Zane nodde understanding what was wrong with the problem,but he shook it off.'Then i'll teach you..." Zane said, the pun was out of place but it made smile anyhow. He wondered though how they would ever make it work out. If Zane had to quit teaching he would, but what about Kaleb's sake.
Understanding this complicated thing was going to end end giving Zane a headache. Not that he had much concern about his job at the moment, it wasn't all as important to him. He had only done it because of his Uncle, and because he promised his old friend to take on a career after he pushed him to do his. That thought made Zane remember his old years, he hadn't thought about them in a while. Not just that, he had almost forgotten his old friend. It was jus like yesterday now, that kid had scared the heck out of him when he had dropped from a tree right ontop of him and then told him he had gotten in the way of his batman routine. Ever sense then they hung out and did crap together. Hell they had run amok some days.
Zane dropped out of the clouds and when Kaleb replied to hating him."I admit you annoyed me, but that doesn't take much in a classroom setting." Zane commented laughing slightly.
As Zane pulled away he say Kaleb's strange look that made him wonder if he really should leave, what was he thinking after all this he couldn't up and leave."what do you want me to do? You and I both know this..is wrong,but we can't just go back to normal lives, theres no way." [/blockquote]
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Post by kaleb on Dec 29, 2009 20:26:09 GMT
` WHEN YOU SWEAR IT‘S ALL MY FAULT,’cause you know we‘re not the same [/size] - - - - - - - - - - - - - Kaleb laughed at the pun, wondering if it was intentional. ”I’m willing to try. For you.” [/color] He said, a smile on his face. But it was still wrong, and there was so much at risk. Zane’s job, Kaleb’s parents. Not that he cared about what they thought, they’d sucked all his happiness away from him as a child, they were not doing it now. Kaleb contemplated how they were going to make it work. He had an apartment, they could be together there, no one would see them. That was one way. He was sure if they were careful, if they really thought about it they could make it work out. But then there was the fact that he was new to the whole bisexual thing, what if he wasn’t good at it, what if he didn’t make a good lover, what if he didn’t make a good partner for Zane. He couldn’t bring himself to be the one to take over Zane’s life, and then hurt him in the commitment part. Kaleb nodded at Zane’s comment. ”I know, that was my intention, I tried to annoy everyone! Do you remember that Sam chick, she was blonde. I really got to her”[/color] he said with a chuckle, remembering the comments. He’d tried the overly confident approach with her, but she was having none of it. He sort of gave up and took to annoying her instead! Kaleb looked down at the next thing, knowing this could change both of their lives. He closed his eyes, deciding to let his heart choose what felt right. “The first time we kissed, It set my lips on fire. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you since then. There is no normal for me anymore, it went out the window the second I stepped into this place again today. And I know that the most important thing to me right now, the thing I want most in this world, it’s that I wan’t you to be happy.”[/color] he finished, biting his lip and meeting Zane’s eyes. He would go with whatever Zane chose, as all he wanted was for him to be happy. He hadn’t lied about that. [/size][/blockquote] - - - - - - - - - - - - - T A G G I N G zane W R I T I N G 367 words W E A R I N G clothes S A Y I N G hope this one explains a little more about him! S I N G I N G paramore - ignorance C R E D I T I N G me.
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Post by lovingthissite on Dec 29, 2009 20:38:06 GMT
"I want you to do whats best for you though..."Zane said worrying that he might screw something up in Kaleb's life, including his future, which Zane could never let down if he did. What would his parents say, espcially if they found out about Zane being a teacher. That could be horrible for the kid.
Zane laughed he did remeber that and later he had found it amusing and he laugh silently about it. Which he had to say without someone being annoying his days would be rather boring, ever sense he had left Hogwarts nothing had been the same, the pranks and everything had just stopped.
Zane had closed his eyes as he heared Kaleb's explanation, trying to swallow it all. Trying to understand the complexity. But he just sighed softly and looked at Kaleb again."Your making it harder and harder to say no." Zane admittedbeing drawn in again."What..about..your parents." Zane nearly choked out, feeling it ackward to ask the question. [/blockquote]
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Post by kaleb on Dec 29, 2009 20:56:57 GMT
` WHEN YOU SWEAR IT‘S ALL MY FAULT,’cause you know we‘re not the same [/size] - - - - - - - - - - - - - Kaleb swallowed hard at what he’d said. One more year and he’d be free of school, free to be with who he wanted. Why couldn’t he be in his last year? Why? He could leave early, but he wanted to be the best he could in his magic, he didn’t want to ruin the potential he had. Although the way Zane made him feel right now made him think he’d give it up in a heartbeat ”I think someone to teach me how to be me would be best for me. If you got that” [/color] Kaleb said, a little confused at what he had said himself! But he could make out what he meant, as Zane had made him feel like his old self again, he didn’t want some random girl anymore, he wanted someone he could cuddle with, someone to hold, someone to hold him. He wanted something more than a fling. Kaleb smiled at Zane’s admission. He wanted to beg him not to say no, he wanted to kiss him, he wanted to make him know how much he effected Kaleb. ”Say what your heart feels, please don’t let it be effected by what if’s. Do whatever will make you happiest”[/color] He said, that was the best he could do, he didn’t want to sway him, it was Zane’s choice now. A lump rose in Kaleb’s throat as he heard his parents mentioned. ”I don’t think they liked me much anyway. My father, he’s a little bit prejudiced. I think it would add to the dislike. But what is a little more hate for what I’d be feeling”[/color] He said with a shrug, and a bitter smile. He would be truly surprised should his father accept that his son wasn’t as much like him as he thought. He didn’t care about what his dad thought about him any more. Kaleb had vied for his attention enough in the past. He’d had enough of pleasing others, he was going to do what he wanted. [/size][/blockquote] - - - - - - - - - - - - - T A G G I N G zane W R I T I N G 335I] words W E A R I N G clothes S A Y I N G hope this one explains a little more about him! S I N G I N G paramore - ignorance C R E D I T I N G me.
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Post by lovingthissite on Dec 30, 2009 14:31:11 GMT
Zane knew what Kaleb was saying, but foudn it hard to except it, What was he doing, he could be just creating somethign htat wouldn't last, and besides that point what if he was ripping Kaleb away from the person he was actually suppose to be with. All these things were bending and breaking Zane into something he didn't want to be. He didn't want to take the kids life from him, but he didn't want to let him go either. He felt stretched and hopeless for a better way yo get through this.
"I want to do whatever is going to make you happiest, or what best for you Kaleb...." Zane replied looking at him trying not to see commanding. Zane could see Kaleb's parents now played a role in this, majorly."Am..I indangering you with your father Kaleb..." Zane asked looking at Kaleb closely hoping he would lie to him. Because father's did alpt to effect their sons outcome. So Zane wanted to know what he was doing to this kid. [/blockquote]
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Post by kaleb on Dec 30, 2009 14:58:43 GMT
` WHEN YOU SWEAR IT‘S ALL MY FAULT,’cause you know we‘re not the same [/size] - - - - - - - - - - - - - Kaleb was torn. Torn between desire to be with Zane, and what he thought was best for Zane. He didn’t know what to say, what to do, how to act. What if Zane was meant to be with someone else, what if Kaleb was stealing him away from the one, and therefore taking away his happiness? What if this wouldn’t last no matter what they gave up? What if it was all for nothing? He couldn’t bear to think that they wouldn’t last and then Zane would have missed his chance with the perfect person for him. ”What do we do?” [/color] he asked, almost helplessly. He’d never felt so vulnerable. But then maybe it was because his shell, the walls that kept up the pretence of an evil kaleb had crumbled the moment that Zane’s lips had touched his. ”Well right now, you make me happy”[/color] he said, looking up and brushing his lips against Zane’s. More electricity. He sighed, wondering what he was meant to say, what he was meant to do. He was with a teacher, it was wrong. But to him he didn’t see a teacher, he saw Zane, the one he’d kissed, the one that had held him, and now he was confused. When Zane said endangering, Kaleb wondered if he meant that his father hurt him physically. No, his dad wasn’t like that, well, he’d never been like that before, and he couldn’t see him becoming violent. ”No, he doesn’t hurt me, well, not with his fists. I hate the man, but I don’t think he’d ever hurt me like that, if that was what you meant. He’d just, well, not like it very much”[/color] Kaleb winced, imagining yelling and a lot of glass breaking if his dad got angry.[/size][/blockquote] - - - - - - - - - - - - - T A G G I N G zane W R I T I N G 295 words W E A R I N G clothes S A Y I N G hope this one explains a little more about him! S I N G I N G paramore - ignorance C R E D I T I N G me.
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Post by lovingthissite on Dec 30, 2009 15:26:04 GMT
Zane breathed in trying to find an answer to put with the question, and found non, but e just let his mind wander and rested on something, took hold and let it drag him somewhere he hadn't been in a while, he remembered words of wisdom from one person he believed in but hardly remembered now.don't let society tame you Zaney. Those words had come from his old friend. He couldn't believe that had come up so suddenly, like he was speaking it right next to him.
"I guess we are going to have to duke it out." Zane replied his eyes flashing slightly as he began to remember all the things he had done and he had been through and realized how much he had been shaped by a person he now didn't even know well anymore.
Zane knew this wasn't not going to end as he heard Kaleb's words and melted into his words, it was all to true for him now. to out there. He could see that clearly now. when Kaleb explained his father, Zane felt a bit more relieved but still worried about what he could happen later. [/blockquote] [ooc; you can have the last Post if you want, i think the threads ending....]
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Post by kaleb on Dec 30, 2009 18:06:50 GMT
` WHEN YOU SWEAR IT‘S ALL MY FAULT,’cause you know we‘re not the same [/size] - - - - - - - - - - - - - Kaleb let his mind wander, imagining what it would be like if he told his Dad. He could hear the words as if the man was speaking in his ear. “I don’t know what your thinking sonny boy, but you can get the hell out of my house, you hear me? GET OUT!” Kaleb winced at the imagined words, but he felt Zane’s arms around him and it all melted away. ”Duke it out. We can do that!” [/color] He smiled contently, for now he was happy, and that was all that mattered to him. He was happy with Zane, and was sure that he could make it work, he didn’t want to lose Zane, as he was too important in Kaleb’s life right now. Kaleb could see that Zane would teach him a lot of things. How to be committed, how to be strong, and most importantly, how to be himself. And he was looking forward to learning all of them! Kaleb knew that his days of bed hopping were at an end, or at least on pause for now, and he had to see where this Zane thing would take him, because he was sure that when he came out of it he would be a better person, and also a better version of Kaleb. People would just have to get used to the new him, as he was changing, and so would peoples views of him. This was Kaleb now, they had to get used to that idea. [/size][/blockquote] - - - - - - - - - - - - - T A G G I N G zane W R I T I N G 250 words W E A R I N G clothes S A Y I N G hope this one explains a little more about him! S I N G I N G paramore - ignorance C R E D I T I N G me. [/quote]
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