I Brought the Doughnuts! [Zane]

[kaleb]

he broke his own heart and i
watched as he tried to
R E A S S E M B L E I T !
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Kaleb couldn’t believe he was doing this. What in his right mind, had possessed him to come here and visit the monster that had been in Kaleb’s thoughts for ages now? And he’d made sure he looked smart too, as if the opinion of the asshole mattered to Kaleb. But the thing was that it did matter, because despite his undying hatred of the guy, a part of Kaleb still loved him dearly, no matter how much he’d been hurt because of it. He winced as he thought of his dad’s reaction. A few days ago, after yet another headache, Kaleb decided that on the weekend he would go and visit Zane in Azkaban. But he had no idea how to get there, and it wasn’t like he could ask his dad, as his dad would rather murder Kaleb before take him to see Zane. So Kaleb had hung around after potions and asked Professor Moore if he could take him there. Mr Moore was reluctant at first, but he could see that Kaleb was in pain and confused and he knew that this visit could help Kaleb sort out his thoughts, so he agreed to chaperone Kaleb to Azkaban.

Kaleb had checked himself in the mirror, smoothing down his jeans and his black top, then ruffled his hair so it looked good. No, it looked better than good, it looked amazing, as it always used to when he used to go out to meet some girls. He grabbed the Daily Prophet and the doughnuts that he’d bought for Zane, and tucked the box of them under his arm, wondering why he'd actually gone out of his way to buy doughnuts for the man that had hurt him so much. He walked out of the common room, his head down, and avoiding peoples gazes. If anyone talked to him or asked him where he was going, he ignored them and pretended that he didn’t hear. Before he knew it, he found himself at the door of Professor Moore’s office. One apparating trip later and he was outside Azkaban, and being led in by some of the new guards that they got in. Thankfully there were no more dementors any more, they had been removed. Good, as Kale couldn’t have handled them the way he felt right then.

Kaleb was led down the cold stone corridors to the cells. He took a deep breath, and all the questions he’d wanted to ask slipped from his mind. He cursed aloud. Professor Moore had agreed to wait downstairs, and the guard was with them to supervise. Kaleb didn’t like it, being watched, but it was for his protection, so he couldn’t disagree. He moved to the cell that held Zane, and he closed his eyes for a moment, readying himself to look at him. He had hardly been able to look the day of the trial, but he wanted to prove he was stronger now than he was then. He needed to prove it to himself too, to show he could handle it, and he could handle the truth. ”Hi”

[/color] He murmured, then coughed a little to clear his throat.[/size][/blockquote]

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Hola! I made this post for the lovely and wonderful Zane, who is my ex-lover and I want to say thanks for reading this! It counts at 507 words! Kaleb is walking around in these clothes. Credit for the template goes to moi, aka Emma! And The lyrics are borrowed from the awesome song, The Only Exception by Paramore Oh, and before you go, you should know; Yey! Zane&Kaleb Threading!!

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[lovingthissite]

ALONE TOGETHER, ABOVE THE CROWD
- - - - - - - beyond the world, we're not too proud to cling together - - - - - - -
WE'RE STRONG AS LONG AS WE'RE TOGETHER
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Zane, if you could eve use his name anymore. Had been in Azkaban a period of days, that he hadn't kept track of, the only things that had visited him was rats, which was slightly more inviting then the Dementors, however, the rodents didn’t even seem to mind him, most of them would come right up to him and seem to chatter and speak to him as if they were use to such occupants.

Today wasn't much different than any other day, but Zane sat rather bored against the stone wall staring up into the, stone, ceiling. What he wouldn't give for a book, or something to read, but that was unlikely. Most people would think the dementors would have ripped him apart, but they hadn't he was still as sane as ever, well as much as he was capable of, considering his predicament. They had defiantly visited him, but he went unaffected for quite a number of times they did, maybe it was because he was so guilty and depressed as it was humanly possible in the first place, it was just kind of adding to the already burning flame.

When the door opened Zane didn’t' fully register the sound, but his head dropped seeing who was there, because, who in their right mind would come here? Then the voice, the single acknowledgement hit him like a sledge hammer in the head. why, is he here Zane panicked slightly, wondering if this was some sick vision that he hardly wanted to see, but he ignored the egging fear and shifted looking up into the face he thought he would never see again. "Kaleb" the way he said it, was, unexplainable, it was anger, or sadness. It was worry, love, affection, and pure happiness together. His reaction even surprised himself, as he shifted onto his feet, his wrist restrain with chain locks, they were overly percautious thanks to people escaping before.

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[/color]STATUS[/size][/font] Muselss kinda
&TAG Kaleb Garcia
&OUTFIT Simple, converse, jeans, flannel t-shirt.
&BANNER banner by: here
&LYRICSalone together - rufus wainwright.
&TEMPLATE leena at caution.
[/ul]

[kaleb]

he broke his own heart and i
watched as he tried to
R E A S S E M B L E I T !
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Kaleb had been so confused lately that he could hardly make out what he was thinking half the time! His grades had improved however, as he used homework as a distraction. It was something to concentrate on that wasn't his pain at being used, the love that part of him still felt for Zane, no matter how much Zane hurt him, and the emotions he was feeling for Vicky, and for Kai. It was confusing, and he'd had numerous headaches over it. He wanted to know why Zane had done it, too, and he'd spent numerous hours wondering why it had been him, why Zane hurt him so much, and why he felt love for Zane, even though he hated him too. It was an odd feeling, to hate something that at the same time you love. Alot of people would say it wasn't possible, but Kaleb knew that it was, as it felt as if you were torn between two things, and you could get no rest from wondering why.

Kaleb's eyes opened onto Zane's face, and he heard Zane say his name. He swallowed hard as he remembered everything he and Zane had been through. The wall where they had properly met, and first kissed, and the nights at Coal's hosue and the little meeting in Hogsmead. It all rushed back to him, and with all the emotion he was feeling, like some sick flashback that made him feel it all again. He nearly lost his balance because of the emotion, and he shuffled his feet to steady himself, then bit his lip to stop him crying. Kaleb's eyes dropped for a moment, but he forced himself to meet Zane's eyes. He held them for a second, then watched as Zane walked over. His hands were in restraints, and Kaleb's heard jumped a little in anger and sadness to see Zane locked up like he was. But then at the same time, the angry and hate filled part of him bit back. he deserves it that part of him thought. The other part of him just stayed silent. He couldn't stay like this forever, it would drive him crazy!

Kaleb opened his mouth to speak, and then closed it and opened it again. He did this a few times, struggling to find words. "I..uh..Brought you doughnuts"

[/color] He said, the words struggling to come out. His voice was thick, he was trying not to cry. Because he’d heard something in Zane’s voice, but he couldn’t put his finger on it, though whatever it was made the emotion he’d felt from his lovely flashback even fresher in his mind. Maybe it was hate. He closed his eyes for a second and took a breath. He probably sounded like a complete idiot, but he didn’t care. After all, he was visiting the person who’d single-handedly caused him to breakdown and lock himself away. But then Zane had also taught Kaleb how to feel, and the pain he’d gone through afterward was surely worth that. Zane wasn’t all bad, he’d made Kaleb happy for awhile anyway.[/size][/blockquote]

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Hola! I made this post for the lovely and wonderful Zane, who is my ex-lover and I want to say thanks for reading this! It counts at 514 words! Kaleb is walking around in these clothes. Credit for the template goes to moi, aka Emma! And The lyrics are borrowed from the awesome song, The Only Exception by Paramore Oh, and before you go, you should know; Yey! Zane&Kaleb Threading!!

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[lovingthissite]

ALONE TOGETHER, ABOVE THE CROWD
- - - - - - - beyond the world, we're not too proud to cling together - - - - - - -
WE'RE STRONG AS LONG AS WE'RE TOGETHER
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Why! why was he here, this wasn't right, what about his Father? Vicky? everyone else, were they okay with this? It surprised Zane, how worried he had just become, in a matter of secounds, or even milisecounds really. It almost knocked the wind out of him he shifted again leaning against the wall, but still standing none the less.

The fact that, this kid, after all he did, had come to see him, almost was to painful for him to keep eye contact, he dropped his eyes glanced around, but, they just reste d back on Kaleb's unable to stray away. He noticed how Kaleb looked like he was both reluctant to be here, and yet, seemed like he wanted to be also. That had to take guts, and Zane knew now, Kaleb was much better then him in so many ways, that it made him ashamed, but of course he had had his chance and he throughly blew it.

Zane glanced at what Kaleb said he brought, and for the first time in while he smiled slighty dropping his head, and chuckling, when he stopped and brought his head back up he still had the smile and now tears trickling down his face. " Thank you." He said softly, standing straight kicking off the wall and bringing his hands up, the chains caught as they reached just above his waist, making a clinking sound as he moved. "Kaleb...-He paused finding his words- you didn't have to come....I am far from deserving." Zane whispered shaking his head, he was barely able to speak, why? why would he come. His arms crossed ackwardly moreover his stomache, and the chains tangling together slightly."..I...am...sorry." He continued, looking away his face falling.

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[/color]STATUS[/size][/font] Muselss kinda
&TAG Kaleb Garcia
&OUTFIT Simple, converse, jeans, flannel t-shirt.
&BANNER banner by: here
&LYRICSalone together - rufus wainwright.
&TEMPLATE leena at caution.
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[kaleb]

he broke his own heart and i
watched as he tried to
R E A S S E M B L E I T !
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Why! Why was he here? Because he liked to punish himself! It was painful to keep eye contact and he'd forced himself to do it! And why? Because he wanted to prove to himself, to Zane, that he was strong enough to face the man that had broken him and bring him some doughnuts, as if Kaleb were visiting a sick friend or something! What would Vicky say when she found out? He hadn't told her. The only person who knew was Professor Moore, and Kaleb was trusting him with alot, as if Kaleb's dad found out about this, he wouldn't be happy! He was far from happy when he'd found out about Zane. Kaleb didn't know whether the anger came from the fact that Kaleb risked his reputation, or the fact that Kaleb was bisexual. Maybe it was both.

Kaleb watched Zane, unable to take his eyes off him now. He wanted to keep looking, because the part of him that loved Zane was a little happier when he did. And because he knew that he couldn't not look at Zane, as he did owe a little bit to Zane, even though Zane had hurt him so much. He had opened the doors and let Kaleb feel, torn down the walls and let Kaleb see, and introduced Kaleb to the real him. Zane had done alot for Kaleb, and Zane meant alot to Kaleb too, well, to the part that loved him he did anyway. Kaleb chuckled along with Zane as he realised how odd this sounded. When Zane brought his head back up, there were tears rolling down it. Immediately, Kaleb felt the worry and without thinking crossed to the bars so he was closer to Zane. A frown was on his face, as if wondering what had made him react like that. He winced a little when the chains clinked, as it reminded him that he was the one who put Zane in them.

Kaleb gave the doughnuts to the guard, who checked the box for anyway of Zane getting out, then gave them back to Kaleb. Kaleb turned them sideways and pushed them through the bars of Zane's cell. He pressed them into Zanes hand, and his skin brushed Zane's breifly when he did so. He retracted his hands immediately, and clasped his own hands together. He didn't like what he'd felt when his hands caught Zane's, as he felt the familiar sparks that he'd felt on the wall. "Zane, I had to come, my heads been a mess. I needed to sort it out."

[/color] Kaleb said back, catching the far from deserving part and his lip quivered a little. He was not going to cry. Damn, he was crying. A few tears fell from his eyes, and he closed his eyes and raised his hand to wipe them away. "There's, uh, there's a paper too"[/color] He said, trying to distract himself. He pushed that through the bars, careful not to let his skin touch Zane's again. "Yeah, so am I"[/color] Kaleb murmmered, looking away and biting his lip before he broke down in tears or something. Boys don't cry.[/size][/blockquote]

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Hola! I made this post for the lovely and wonderful Zane, who is my ex-lover and I want to say thanks for reading this! It counts at 524 words! Kaleb is walking around in these clothes. Credit for the template goes to moi, aka Emma! And The lyrics are borrowed from the awesome song, The Only Exception by Paramore Oh, and before you go, you should know; Yey! Zane&Kaleb Threading!!

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[lovingthissite]

ALONE TOGETHER, ABOVE THE CROWD
- - - - - - - beyond the world, we're not too proud to cling together - - - - - - -
WE'RE STRONG AS LONG AS WE'RE TOGETHER
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Zane was filled with thoughts when he felt the box pushed through the cell, he felt the brief touch of Kaleb's hand, and his entire face turned red, he broke eye contact and fumbled with the box trying not to make himself even more flustered. He ignored the feelings welling into his body and muscles. He fidgeted, and felt the news paper too, placing the box down he opened the parchment his eyes scanning over it, something to read. He blinked raising his eyes back to Kaleb's when he spoke.

"ITS all my fault your heads messed up..." Zane mumbled slightly. He sighed deeply and placed the newspaper on the ground with the box. One of his fingers traced the bar in front of him awkwardly, as he heard Kaleb's next words. "Those words don't matter anymore." Zane replied realizing he was to late for that. He sighed again, his hand wrapping around the bar as he pressed his forehead against the door. "How is Vicky doing? Your taking good care of her right?" Zane whispered softly.

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[/color]STATUS[/size][/font] Muselss kinda
&TAG Kaleb Garcia
&OUTFIT Simple, converse, jeans, flannel t-shirt.
&BANNER banner by: here
&LYRICSalone together - rufus wainwright.
&TEMPLATE leena at caution.
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[kaleb]

he broke his own heart and i
watched as he tried to
R E A S S E M B L E I T !
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Kaleb couldn't belive he was doing this. He still couldn't believe he was here. He was sure to wake up soon and know that this was all some wacked out dream. But he didn't want it to be, as he knew that there was some reason that he came here, and he knew he had to sort himself out. He brought his eyes, that had been on the floor, and forced them to meet Zane's again. He saw that Zane's face was red, and he somehow linked that to the hands touching. A blush crept into his face and he smiled. "I guess I still have it in me to make you blush, huh?"

[/color] He said, remembering the wall, and their convorsation about blushing. He'd heard that it was hard to make Zane blush, but he'd managed it many times.

Kaleb sighed and raised his hand, running it trough his hair, and then covering his lips for a second, then he wound it around another bar, one close to Zane's hand, but not in touching distance. "No. Well, yeah, partially. But there are other things to. Other feelings"[/color] Kaleb said with another sigh, that seemed to echo off the cold stone walls. He couldn't explain his confusion, as he couldn't make sense of it himself! His feelings were all jumbled up! He loved Zane, and hated him. He loved Vicky, but at the same time, he loved Kai. He hated his father yet he was constantly seeking his dad's approval, and then he'd changed so much in the past few months that he was so confused about who he was. He was trying to work it all out, and to do that he was trying to tackle each issue one by one. This visit was meant to solve the Zane confusion, then he was going to way out his feelings for Vicky and Kai, see who he loved more, and in what way he loved them. For all he knew, he could love them as a friend, as there were many types of love, and all of them were confusing!

"No, they do matter, as you obviously care enough to say them. Unless you're saying them because of guilt. But then that shows that you understand what you did and regret it."[/color] Kaleb reasoned, smiling slightly at his own logic. So either way, the words mattered to him, and they should matter to Zane too. They showed that he had some humanity, some feeling left in him, and kaleb was glad of that, no matter how much he hated Zane.
Kaleb nodded and bit his lip at the mention of Vicky. He'd felt something then to, when her name was mentioned. Damn his feelings! "Yeah, I've been looking out for her. Though she's been taking more care of me than I have of her. I was pretty, uhh, ill for a while. She's been making sure I bathe and everything!"[/color] Kaleb whispered back, joking with the bathing thing. He used ill instead of bad, as he didn't want Zane to know how much of a wreck he'd made Kaleb, as it would make Kale look weak. And the bath thing was sort of a joke between himself and Vicky, as they always ended up in the same bath at the same time! And it was always an accident too, though he wasn't complaining!
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Hola! I made this post for the lovely and wonderful Zane, who is my ex-lover and I want to say thanks for reading this! It counts at 563 words! Kaleb is walking around in these clothes. Credit for the template goes to moi, aka Emma! And The lyrics are borrowed from the awesome song, The Only Exception by Paramore Oh, and before you go, you should know; Yey! Zane&Kaleb Threading!!

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[lovingthissite]

ALONE TOGETHER, ABOVE THE CROWD
- - - - - - - beyond the world, we're not too proud to cling together - - - - - - -
WE'RE STRONG AS LONG AS WE'RE TOGETHER
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Zane smiled again, is face showing his feelings perfectly. It was true, and even now he could and he hated to admit it."Only Romeo." He answered back lightly, seeing Kaleb's face blushing slightly. He was so happy to see that, that face, he had always loved that face. He couldn't help but wish he could jsut go back to what they had been, but it was way to late for it, it was obvious.

His eyes shifted as he raised his head fro the bars looking at Kaleb's hand, it was close, a bar away from his own, but he dropped his head again trying to ignore it slightly/" Other feelings..." Zane eched the words, wanting to know everything about Kaleb, wanting to know what he missed in his life, what he had given up. He wnated to know what other person had Kaleb's heart, who had the chance to see the real Kaleb.

"Guilt..Feelings...they are all the same in my mind right now." Zane mumbled slightly, his voice craking as he stuffed back more of what he had learned to keep hidden. Zane found himself laughing at Kaleb's comment about Vicky."Shes a good girl, I hope you two stay good friends." Zane replied bring his head up looking at Kaleb again. " How...is....Coal?" He lips pressed togheter as he sighed. Coal hadn't come to see, him, which again, didn't surprise him,but he wouldn't mind knowing how his best friend was doing. Of course, knowing how Kaleb was doing was just as satisfying, he missed being with him more then anything.

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[/color]STATUS[/size][/font] Muselss kinda
&TAG Kaleb Garcia
&OUTFIT Simple, converse, jeans, flannel t-shirt.
&BANNER banner by: here
&LYRICSalone together - rufus wainwright.
&TEMPLATE leena at caution.
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[kaleb]

he broke his own heart and i
watched as he tried to
R E A S S E M B L E I T !
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Kaleb was astonished by the feelings he saw in Zane's face. Was it possible that Zane still felt that, or was it just another lie, another attempt to hurt Kaleb even more? He grew skeptical, but a part of him still wanted to believe that what Zane did was out of love, even if it tore himself and Kaleb apart in the process. "Only for my Juliet."

[/color] He answered back with an honest smile. He wished so much that he could go back to how they were that day on the bench, flirting and calling themselves the star-crossed lovers. But it was way too obvious now that they could never be like that again, as Kaleb was finding it hard to trust what Zane was saying or seeming to feel. He had been fooled before and was worried about being fooled again.

Kaleb noticed Zane's eyes rest on his hand, and Kaleb swallowed as he realised how close their hands were. One bar away. Kaleb fought the urge to move his hand onto Zane's, and he won. He wasn't going to do that, he couldn't bear to, not at the moment. If he had touched Zane's hands then all the feelings and emotion would return once again like a tidal wave, and he couldn't handle that agian, for the second time that day. His heart picked up a beat when Zane echoed his words. What should he say? "Yeah. Confusion, hate, love, lust, Vicky, Kai. It's all muddled together. And I need to sort my head out."[/color] Kaleb explained before he realised his words. He was being so honest with Zane again, though he knew he shouldn't. But he couldn't help it, as he felt like he could talk to Zane, even though the sense of mistrust was still there.

"Guess I'm not the only one who's confused"[/color] Kaleb said with a sigh. He hated how messed up his head was. His feelings hadn't helped either, considering that he felt something for Vicky, and something for Zane still, and then those feelings had confused him and made him think that he felt something for Kai. He loved Kai, yeah, but like a brother, not a lover. Although Kaleb hadn't quite worked that last fact out yet due to the fact that his head was a shambles. "She is. She's pretty and smart and funny and sexy, and her personality is amazing! All the things I would look for in a girl. But things are never that simple are they. So I'm sorta hoping that it would be more than friends, but I don't know if I'm ready."[/color] Kaleb ammended, sighing again. He couldn't believe the situations he got himself into sometimes.

Kaleb smirked when Zane mentioned Coal. "He's teaching. Medical magic or something. And he's spending alot of his free time in maids outfits, oh, and flashing to me. Long story"[/color] Kaleb said, laughing a little as he remembered the whole bedroom incident. But he coloured a little in the face at the memory. Seeing Coal like that was so...wrong. Kaleb counted Coal as a friend, but he was sort of a teacher too, well, substitute. But that wasn’t the point! The point was he shouldn’t have been relying on Coal to get him out of tight spots. ”Though I don’t like to admit it, I owe Coal one. He got me out of a tight spot a little while back.”[/color] Kaleb said with a sigh. How come it was so easy to talk to Zane? It was like a normal conversation, just with bars and handcuff things.[/size][/blockquote]

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Hola! I made this post for the lovely and wonderful Zane, who is my ex-lover and I want to say thanks for reading this! It counts at 598 words! Kaleb is walking around in these clothes. Credit for the template goes to moi, aka Emma! And The lyrics are borrowed from the awesome song, The Only Exception by Paramore Oh, and before you go, you should know; Yey! Zane&Kaleb Threading!!

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[lovingthissite]

ALONE TOGETHER, ABOVE THE CROWD
- - - - - - - beyond the world, we're not too proud to cling together - - - - - - -
WE'RE STRONG AS LONG AS WE'RE TOGETHER
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Zane brought his head back up, smiling at Kaleb, honestly, when he heard their conversation, it was just like it had been at the bench, when it was like that had just met, and it was like fate had destined the impossible love. Zane knew it would never be the same, he didn't want it to be, he wanted Kaleb to have as little to do with him as possible, he was a bad influence and he was manipulating someone who didn't understand."Perhaps we really are like Romeo and Juliet, right now I have faked my own death, but don't follow me there." Zane said softly with a concerned smirk.

He still looked at Kaleb's hand fighting the urge to reach out to it, he could let himself give into the feeling, he just couldn't. it would be right. Zane's head perked up more when Kaleb mentioned what he was feeling."Kamil Snyder? Kai right, I faintly. remember him from a class..." Zane mumbled slightly sighing deeply.

Zane let out a surprised gasp, but then he let out a knowing smile."Coal....I always knew you would one day. someone gifted with the ability to heal..." Zane sighed. Then he laughed, one of those laughs that brought tears alot of the time."That crazy asshole, he lost at poker didn't he?He was always horrible at betting."Zane wanted to ask about the tight spot, but found that he shouldn't ask about it, he didn't feel it was his place to know. Then his hand slid down the bar and shifted to the one that was between Kaleb's and the one before. He let his pinky take hold of Kaleb's as he just looked at him."I am sorry, what I put you through....you can hate me as much as you want to...." Zane began softly.

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[/color]STATUS[/size][/font] Muselss kinda
&TAG Kaleb Garcia
&OUTFIT Simple, converse, jeans, flannel t-shirt.
&BANNER banner by: here
&LYRICSalone together - rufus wainwright.
&TEMPLATE leena at caution.
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[kaleb]

he broke his own heart and i
watched as he tried to
R E A S S E M B L E I T !
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Kaleb smiled as he realised the convoration would have fit right in if they were on their bench again. It was odd, how memories came back to him, even if it would hurt to think about this again later. He knew that it could never be the same, and this was sort of torturing himself, but he felt like he needed to see Zane, for some sort of closure, he supposed. He found it odd that he couldn't stop thinking about him, arguing the reasons why Zane did it all in his head, wondering what would have happened if Zane had said he loved Kaleb instead of telling the truth. And it was the truth, and Kaleb was trying to force his whole self to see that fact. "I came, didn't I? It shows that the months in exhile didn't change some of the feelings I had."

[/color] Kaleb said, relating himself to the play by the great writer, Shakespeare.

Kaleb's eyes kept returning to Zane's hand, and he fought the urge once again to take a hold of it. It would be improper, and wrong, and it would feel so good to hold it again! No. Kaleb couldn't let himself, he was sure it would complicate things even more. No, he couldn't, could he? It was odd, hearing Kai's full name being said by Zane. A week or two ago Kaleb would have probably threatened Zane for just saying his name, but there was no malice, no bad intent, nothing. He didn't know why he'd expected a mean tone from Zane at the mention of Kai. "Yeah, that's him. He's an, erm, old friend..of mine"[/color] He paused on the word friend, unsure if that was what he could call Kai after what they had done together. But he wasn't about to confess to Zane that he'd taken his friend as his lover. No, not happening.

Kaleb grinned at Zane's happiness at Coal's acheivement. it showed that he did at least care for Coal, which was good because Coal still cared for Zane, although Kaleb didn't think that he'd visited him. "Yeah, he's a sub at the moment, but who knows, maybe it'll become permanent!"[/color] He said with a small smile. He'd have never sounded so enthusiastic about having Coal around the castle before, and he certainly wouldn't sound like that to Coal's face. But Kaleb had began to think of Coal as a friend, even if he'd never admit it to Coal. "yeah. Twice. Ended up as my maid the second time. Not fun. I told him I'd have to teach him how to play so that he could stop showing up in that damn outfit. And then he tried to take it off. Less than fun."[/color] Kaleb joked, remembering the night that this had happened. It was rather painful to see Coal following his every order to the letter. Okay, not painful, just out of place and crazy!

He felt Zane take his pinky in his own and the blush coloured his cheeks again. He couldn't stop his hand moving and stroking Zane's gently. Damn his old habbits. He knew Vicky would probably kill him when she found out about the visit. He'd just have to explain why he did it, and hope it would be sorted. He didn't want her upset with him, but he needed his emotions and his head sorted out, and this was the only thing he could think of that may work, so he was damned well going to try it. "But that's just it. I can't just hate you. I, well, there's a part of me that does. But then there's a part of you that feels the opposite."[/color] Kaleb said, casting his eyes to the ground and sighing.[/size][/blockquote]

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Hola! I made this post for the lovely and wonderful Zane, who is my ex-lover and I want to say thanks for reading this! It counts at 626 words! Kaleb is walking around in these clothes. Credit for the template goes to moi, aka Emma! And The lyrics are borrowed from the awesome song, The Only Exception by Paramore Oh, and before you go, you should know; Yey! Zane&Kaleb Threading!!

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[lovingthissite]

ALONE TOGETHER, ABOVE THE CROWD
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WE'RE STRONG AS LONG AS WE'RE TOGETHER
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"People follow love blindly..." Zane lectured slightly gripping the bar, turning his hand pale. He didn't want to hear this, he didn't want Kaleb to love him, he knew it only caused him pain, pain of knowing what he had done to Kaleb, even if he had never even really done much, it was still bad. "Love causes people to do things, even at the cost of themselves.." Zane continued, he knew what he had done was wrong, and now he was fixing it, he was becoming someone, who gave up what they loved to protect that one thing. It was hard for him to admit, thath e did feel something for Kaleb, he didn't want to, because it if he did he knew it would hurt both of them, alot, but if he didn't it could end up turning him hollow.

Zane smiled lightly, "Old friend? Or best friend Kaleb...you can't edge around the truth with me. I saw how you said his name." Zane mused. He knew how that sounded, it sounded like how he use to say Coal's name. That memory was still fresh in the back of Zane's mind, when he had approached Coal about his feelings and how he felt, and how he always said his name when he realized that he cared for his best friend. Its all in the name, how you say it, and only people who felt the smae thing could know what the other meant.

Zane sighed again, laughing shortly " Coal...in a skirt, I can't picture that." He said softly and laughed again biting his lip. He hared the next words and felt Kaleb's hand enclose on his and he took in a breath, don't Zane, you can't let him feel anything for you. He let his hand smooth over Kaleb's slightly but then his hand moved away to his sides."I...never hated you...." Zane turned placing a hand on the stone wall. He gritted his teeth bigting back tears, frustration and everythign else, he would let the dementors suck him dry later, but not now, he had to stay mentally stable, or he would fall apart and be unable to speak."..I..loved you." He said, it was choked out, as he tried not to let his emotions take hold. He turned back tears, tear jsut pourind down his face, splattering to the floor as he snak against the wall his head in his lap. He was shivering, every emotion just exploded, he hadn't acknowledged his feelings, till now, and it was pouring out, and there was no way to stop it.

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[/color]STATUS[/size][/font] Muselss kinda
&TAG Kaleb Garcia
&OUTFIT Simple, converse, jeans, flannel t-shirt.
&BANNER banner by: here
&LYRICSalone together - rufus wainwright.
&TEMPLATE leena at caution.
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[kaleb]

he broke his own heart and i
watched as he tried to
R E A S S E M B L E I T !
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Kaleb nodded, a sigh escaping his lips. That they did, and he had too, deciding that day that his heart was broken that he would warn Zane, so that they could be together anyway. Kaleb didn't expect Zane to confess his betreyal though, or the fact that Zane was using him like a pawn in some sick and twisted game of his. He couldn't believe that he'd fallen so hard for him, only to have Zane break his heart, and in fact, break him. Because he had been broken. He'd been broken and shaking and he could hardly leave his room for the shame of being so affected by Zane. But he'd moved passed it and returned to his lessons, and tried more and more to stay in the common room instead of his dorm room, as he wasn't going to hide away because of one very bad experience.

Kaleb was stronger than that, and he just had to prove that to himself. That was what coming here was about, to prove he could handle it and sort things out in his brain, which had been working overtime since the whole thing had come out. Kaleb frowned, "Yeah, I know that. My father found out about us. It was inevitable thanks to his job at the ministry."

[/color] Kaleb said with a sigh. He didn't know why he'd told Zane that, it wasn't even related really, he just sort of needed someone to know. It was odd that he chose the reason he was in this position to play his therapist. Kaleb thought more into what Zane had said, and he wondered if it meant that what Zane had done was for a reason other than what he'd told Kaleb. no. He hurt me, I can't trust him, he could be acting he thought to himself.

Kaede blushed a little as Zane asked more about Kai. Did he lie? Was there any point in lying? The way he was right now he was sure that anyone could see through his lies, because he had no energy to make them sound convincing. "Best friend. But I don't even know if that's an acurate description any more, we moved way past the friend mark"[/color] Kaleb murmered, colouring even more as he remembered Kai's kisses and the whole bedroom scene. Kai had come to help Kaleb forget Zane, and he'd helped erase Zane from Kaleb's lips and his body, no doubt! But still, Zane had been in his thoughts, but at least he was in Kaede's thoughts a lot less after he had been with Kai. Kaleb wondered what emotion Zane had heard in his voice when he'd mentioned Kai's name. He'd not realised that it sounded any different, but no doubt that Zane had picked up on some deeper emotion or affection that Kaleb hadn't even heard in his own voice.

Kaleb smirked and shook his head. ”Trade with me, I can’t get rid of the mental image!”[/color] He joked, as it drifted into his head again. It was just so damn wrong that Coal kept losing and getting himself into situations like that! Kaleb was definitely teaching him to play poker, bluff and to bet appropriately. Although Kaleb didn’t know how well he could bluff at the moment either, and spotting pairs and such took concentration as it was easy to skip over a great hand and not realise until the game was lost. Kaleb shivered slightly as Zane’s hand smoothed over his, but the spark was gone. It was odd, that he’d felt it a moment ago, but it wasn’t there now.

Zane’s hand dropped away and Kaleb kept his on the bar, trying to work out what had happened in his thoughts, to his reactions that had taken the spark away. He didn’t know, but maybe it was to do with the constant reminder of the hurt he’d suffered because of Zane, and the complete loss of conversation with his dad (even though it was not that great before). But he knew that it had gone. Kaleb heard the words and he smiled a little unknowingly. It seemed that not all the emotion had gone then. He sighed and watched as Zane began to cry. A part of him wanted to comfort Zane, and the other half thought that it was good that Zane got an idea of how it was to be unable to stop crying, as it was what Kaleb had felt. ”I loved you too. That’s why it hurt so damn much”[/color] Kaleb said, sitting on the floor and crossing his legs. He wondered why Zane was so torn up.

Zane loved him? Zane loved him? Then why had he hurt him so badly? Why didn’t he say it in that classroom, when Kaleb had said it to him. Why? Always why, the question that had been burning into Kaleb’s mind for the past weeks, months, however long it had been. Kaleb didn’t even know any more, it all sort of blended together, and he’d lost track of time. ”Why?”[/color] He asked aloud, his voice low, and cracking a little under the emotional strain. He wanted to cry but wasn’t going to let himself.[/size][/blockquote]

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Hola! I made this post for the lovely and wonderful Zane, who is my ex-lover and I want to say thanks for reading this! It counts at 867 words! Kaleb is walking around in these clothes. Credit for the template goes to moi, aka Emma! And The lyrics are borrowed from the awesome song, The Only Exception by Paramore Oh, and before you go, you should know; Yey! Zane&Kaleb Threading!! Oops, pretty long again!

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[lovingthissite]

ALONE TOGETHER, ABOVE THE CROWD
- - - - - - - beyond the world, we're not too proud to cling together - - - - - - -
WE'RE STRONG AS LONG AS WE'RE TOGETHER
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Zane's face feel bleakly at the explantion of Kaleb's father. "What did he do? Did he speak to you? Did he hurt you?" He asked rapidly, like a worried mother or something. He eyes scanned Kaleb for anything that might catch something that he would be telling him, one little pice of information to know he was okay. He bit his lower lip breaking eye contact he was jsut making this worse then it really needed to be, he was going to make it even harder the longer Kaleb stayed.

Zane's forehead creased at Kaleb's expression about Kai. "Be careful..." was all he said dropping the subject flatly, he had dealt with best friend feelings before he didn't want to relive it, because frankly that b to much on his mind, already he felt like flopping over like a dead man anyhow. but of course he couldn't do that either that be giving up and he was dead set against about giving up. So he would suffer through as much as possible.

He broke into a smile laughing, "Ohhh trust me, i have seen him him in something worse then a maid outfit..." Zane let the sentence drop laughing and wincing slightly. He shook the image out of his head still laughing about it, wondering what it be like to be back in school with the only friend he really had during that time.

Zane lifted his head seeing Kaleb sit. "I know..." was all he managed to say, rather depressingly, he didn't know what else to say to it, it wasn't something he ould counter and choose not to.

The cursed uestion, that one word, he knew it was coming. He looked up looking trhoug hthe bars with sad eyes. "Kaleb...I..I didn't want you to be..around me, not for my own selfish reasons, but because I knew that if we were ever caught that you would be blamed too. So..i decided I would end it...make you hate me as much as possible and make sure you couldn't get in trouble for it, not even a little bit....and besides...It seems like I am meant to end up here anyhow, deatheater...or not." Zane explained not sure how to put it all, considering he really didn't know it all."But...that day in the classroom...I just..I froze, I knew I couldn't turn back so why not just go the rest of the way? I am going into hell by myself Kaleb, don't you dare follow." Zane finished his eyes hardening the last bits of tears drying on his face. He wouldn't let Kaleb fall, not this time not ever, no matter the cost, even if he became the worst thing in this world.

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[/color]STATUS[/size][/font] Muselss kinda
&TAG Kaleb Garcia
&OUTFIT Simple, converse, jeans, flannel t-shirt.
&BANNER banner by: here
&LYRICSalone together - rufus wainwright.
&TEMPLATE leena at caution.
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[kaleb]

he broke his own heart and i
watched as he tried to
R E A S S E M B L E I T !
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Kaleb noticed the rush of words, the worry that was in them, and he choked back a small laugh. He sounded like a worrying mother would. not that Kaleb had heard his mother worry that much about him. It was odd, that his parent's didn't care enough to worry but the guy who hurt him did. He was reluctant at first, to tell the truth, as he knew that Zane would freak out and get mad, but Kaleb thought that Zane should at least know what he had put Kaleb through, and although he would feel a little guilty at telling him later, he felt like Zane needed to know. "Silence. I saw him at the trial, and he said nothing. He just glared at me."

[/color] Kaleb started, hesitating for a second, then opening his mouth to continue. "Then last friday, I got a letter delivered by owl, demanding that I return home via floo powder for the weekend. I knew he wouldn't be happy, but I had to go, else he would just make it worse. So I went. He yelled at me, I argued back. walked out of the house with a split lip and a slightly bruised ribcage. But it could have been worse."[/color] Kaleb murmered, his hand automatically going to the rib where his dad had hit him. It wasn't so bad now, he'd used some cream on it that made the bruise fade a little, but he didn't dare go to the hospital wing to get it sorted.

Kaleb frowned when he was told to be careful. "Wise words from the guy locked up in Azkaban."[/color] Kaleb said sarcastically, not meaning it harsh, he just wanted to make a point that if Zane was going to tell him how careful to be, he'd not take it from someone who couldn't follow his own advice. He was being careful, he was watching himself and trying to be the best he could in the situation. And he was really trying too, he seriously was. But he couldn't just pretend that it all didn't happen, it had effected him too much, and people were starting to notice that he'd changed. Kale was about to ask what he'd seen Zane in, but he decided not to when he saw Zane wince. "Yeah, bet you didn't get a great look at the lovely breasts that his bandmate's made for him. I did on his request. not good."[/color] Kaleb murmered, shaking his head as if to get rid of the memory, although he knew that he wouldn't forget that easily, as Coal flashing you wasn't something that happened every day, thankfully! Kaleb didn't know what he could say to Zane's response, and it seemed that Zane didn't want to carry on with that topic, and Kaleb agreed as it would hurt them even more.

Kaleb was trying to hate Zane fully, but it was so easy to converse and get on with Zane that it was making this whole thing even more difficult! He didn't want to like Zane, as Zane had reduced him to a quivering mess! It wasn't right, Kaleb and Zane getting on like this, Kaleb should have tried to kill Zane at least once by now! But he hadn't, although the bars would make it slightly difficult, and the fact that the man at the desk had taken his wand. Kaleb heard Zane's emission with surprise and confusion. He didn't know if Zane was lying, as he couldn't tell what was the truth anymore. He didn't want to believe Zane encase he was lying, but at the same time a part of him wanted to believe that was the reason. "Well it worked. I do hate you. But nowhere near as much as I should after what you put me through. I'll go to hell for all the bad I've done in the past anyway Zane, as Merlin knows how many girls I've hurt. I was never a nice person to the people around me, as I was to scared that I'd get hurt. I had good reason to be worried I suppose"[/color] Kaleb said, referring to the first time that he'd truly let his guard down, and he'd been hurt by Zane. He had good cause to worry.[/justify][/size][/blockquote]

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Hola! I made this post for the lovely and wonderful Zane, who is my ex-lover and I want to say thanks for reading this! It counts at 712 words! Kaleb is walking around in these clothes. Credit for the template goes to moi, aka Emma! And The lyrics are borrowed from the awesome song, The Only Exception by Paramore Oh, and before you go, you should know; Yey! Zane&Kaleb Threading!!

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